more than vigilant

o the downpour of rain. usually the rain fills me up inside. i would feel so alive. but today it’s like the end of the world. puddles amass. everything is colorless. my commute has become loudly monotonous. my fingers are cold. i know i am still alive. but i am not sure what for. instead of the exhilaration i used to feel when i would look up to the sky and my face would be blessedly washed, today i am aware that i simply exist. my world is being flooded.

during my break i watched million dollar baby. so naturally i thought of terri schiavo. my good friend’s wife is her first cousin. my heart drifts toward their family everyday. i don’t know what it’s like for them to hold on to her life for so long. i also watched hotel rwanda. i was enraged at the thought of 800,000 people slaughtered at a rate of killing that was faster than the nazis. enraged because nothing was done. nobody really cared then, i suspect nobody really cares now. i watched friday night lights. i needed an outlet for all my pent up aggressions at that point only being fueled further by the heat of the real march madness. i watched the incredibles. i long to be incredible and not just wait for something incredible to happen. rain, rain on my face. it hasn’t stopped raining.
as a seminary student looking at graduating in a month, it’s real difficult to spend time in the books when all these things stir in me. i want more.

“If there’s magic in boxing is the magic of fighting battles beyond endurance, beyond cracked ribs, ruptured kidneys and detached retinas. It’s the magic of risking everything for a dream that nobody sees but you.” ~ Eddie Scrap-Iron Dupris, Million Dollar Baby

“If people see this they’ll say ‘Oh my God, that is horrible,’ and then go on eating their dinners.” ~ Jack, Hotel Rwanda

“Kingdom people seek first the Kingdom of God and its justice; church people often put church work above concerns of justice, mercy and truth. Church people think about how to get people into the church; Kingdom people think about how to get the church into the world. Church people worry that the world might change the church; Kingdom people work to see the church change the world.” ~ Howard Snyder

xtra ditty from aim convo with joyosity :: isn’t it interesting, peculiar that the (re: today’s earthquake and the earthquake/tsunami) both happened the day after major Christian holidays? makes you wonder huh?


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[american born chinese pastor]
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here we may explore issues unique to the chinese church and doing ministry in that context
expand the intersection of asian american culture and christian faith
or simply expose what goes on in the mind of this abcpastor

this may be a bit ambitious or even naiive but i do hope that through the posts we can bring together different faith communities, passions for the advancement of the Gospel and the equipping of the body of Christ.

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